Buscar

SANA....

naaalala ko pa rin ang mga oras na magkasama tayo

at lahat ng mga bagay na magkasama nating ginawa.

ang RELASYON na matagal nating pinaglaban pareho.

yung mga bagay na akala ko sapat na para hindi matapos

ang relasyon na to.

Naaalala mo pa ba yung lage mung sinasabi sakin???

Lagi mo sinasabi "-H-M-A, KAYA NATIN TO, WAG LANG TAYO BUMITAW

DI KITA IIWAN ANDITO LANG AKO AT SOBRANG MAHAL KITA PO!!!".

Na magkasama natib lalampasan lahat mallaki man o maliit

na problema dahil magkasama tayo..

yun naman ang ginawa ko iniintindi kita kahit minsan di ko na kaya

kaya umiiyak nalang ako... dahil wala naman akong magawa kasi sa huli

ako padin ang lalabas na masama,sa huli kasalanan ko parin.

kaya pinipilit ko maging matigas khit nararamdaman ko nagbabago kana sakin...

pero kahit ganun, umaasa parin ako na darating ang araw bumalik ka ulit sa dati...

yung makulit, yung sa bawat araw nararamdaman ko kung ganu mo ako kamahal...

yung sa bawat gabi kahit ganu ka pa ka pagod galing sa trabaho, nagagawa mo pa

mag alala at magtanung kung kamusta ang araw ko...

kasi alam mo ba???? "MISS NA MISS KO NA ANG TAONG UN" :(

MISS N MISS NA KITA, kahit pa sinasabi mo tinotopak ako at di kita maintindihan...

pero ako kaya naiintindihan mo? Di mo na kailangan na masagot pa yan,

kasi alam ko na sa dulo ng usapan na to ako parin ang hindi nakakaunawa...

hindi ako selfish, hinahanap ko lang ang dating ikaw...

ang hirap kasi nasanay ako na lagi kang may panahon sakin,

nasanay ako na kapag nasasaktan at umiiyak ako lagi kang anjan kahit

napakalayo mo sakin... lagi mo ko napapasaya kahit dagat pa ang pagitan natin.

Nasanay ako na sa gabi nananatili kang gising kasi alam mo gising pa ako, at

bago ako makatulog boses mo ang pinakahuling maririning ko.

At sa umaga pag gising ko, ikaw ang pinakaunang bumabati sakin,

at sinasabing MAHAL NA MAHAL MO AKO at di mo ako ipagpapalit kasi

ako lang ang pinaka maganda sa paningin mo.. na sa kabila ng pagiging

pasaway at kakulitan ko ay hindi ka nagsasawang intindihin ako...

sana nga bumalik kana...

KISMET...


Sabi nila pag mahal mo ang isang tao matuto kang pakawalan siya.

Kung sayo, sayo... kung hindi, hindi... pero panu mo maiisip na pakawalan

Ang isang tao kung siya ang dahilan kug bakit nagmamahal ka???

Mas madalas nagkukunwari tayo pag sobra ng nasasaktan...

Sasabihin natin “WALA YUN NOH!” pero pag nag-iisa na di na mapigilan ang pag iyak

At masasabi nalang sa sarili na “MAHAL PARIN KITA KAHIT OBRANG SAKIT NA!!!” L

Sometimes its not that easy to say, “BAHALA NA!” just to have the one you love remain

By your side... but later on you will realize its more difficult to utter when you know you have to let go and just say, “BAHALA NA!! MALUNGKOT AKO BASTA’T MASAYA SYA!!!” L

Bawat bagay may halaga. Hindi mo lang nakikita kasi hindi pa siya nawawala, bawat tao

May importansiya, hindi mo lang napapansin dahil andyan lang siya...

Pero pg nawala na hinahanap mo na... saka ka manghihinayang, pag iba na ang nakinabang...

Whats meant to be will always find a way and if ever you’ve found yours, give your best shot to make it happen, so you wont have any regrets afterwards... NEVER let it go... kasi kung wala kang gagawin,hindi lahat ng MEANT TO BE ay nagiging REALITY...

Nagseselos ako sa mga taong nagiging malpit sayo, lalo pa at magkalayo tayo...

Hindi ako selfish o possessive... takot lang akong maging masaya ka sa iba, at baka

makalimutan mo na minsan naging masaya ka skin L...

anung gagawin ko pag wala ka na??!! Masaaktan??!! Iiyak?? At pipiliting limutin ka??

HINDI!!! Dahil isa lang ang aya kung gawin kahit masakit... Yun ay ang MAHALIN KA PARIN!!!...

UNTITLED

I’m hoping that someday that some kid, black or white will hit more

Whoever it is, I’d be pulling for him.

Life is too short to spend hoping that the perfectly arched eyebrow

Or hottest new lip shade could mask an ugly grieving heart.

If I could write a million reasons to tell you how much I miss you,

I would, but I have limited space so I’d cut it short,

"There’s no other person in this world that could make me smile

The way you do".

We never talk about us, what you feel and how I felt...

But are there really things to be talked about?...

Or it was just my imagination when I felt everything

Were just so right? :(

It’s amazing how you easily fall in love with someone

Who simply smiles, talks or stares at you.

The only hard thing to do is to make that person

Fall for you.

There is nothing so well known as that we should

Not expect something for nothing...

But we all do, and call it HOPE.

Don’t waste time beating on the wall,

Hoping to transform it into a door.

To LOVE means loving the UNLOVABLE

To FORGIVE means pardoning the UNPARDONABLE

FAITH means believing the UNBELIEVABLE

HOPE means hoping still when everything

Seems HOPELESS...

I would assume that most people HATE my CHARACTER.

But I’m HOPING against HOPE that I’m the CHARACTER YOU LOVE TO HATE...

IM JUST SO TIRED OF EVERYTHING BUT STILL TAKING

WHATEVER LIFE GIVES ME AND HOPING THAT I MADE THE RIGHT DECISION...

SILENT TEARS

A paradox of life; The people we meet are meant to fill the emptiness in our lives yet in reality, they bring greater holes in our hearts when time comes that they have to go. Because of that I sometimes hope I only have myself to be with… Then I wouldn’t have to know short-lived joy and suffer endless pain. But life wouldn’t permit that to happen. Again and again, it allows us to meet people who come to touch our lives and leave us to yearn at the memories they fill.

He came to my life during the times I felt like the world was trying to keep me away from the one thing I truly loved—writing. I was a miserable earthling then, unsure of my dreams, my life, and myself but I was determined to step into the unknown. I wasn’t strong and confident but I was persistent. I wasn’t always a winner but I was unwavering. I wasn’t perfect because I was just a human. And he was there as my guide, never failing me for a moment.

My mornings are always started with early chitchats about everything in life and it was always filled with something new to learn. I would laugh at myself and at my foolishness and he would be there to listen and tell his own tales. I would pour out my emotions and he would express amusement. I was bizarre but it didn’t matter. He always understood. After that, I always feel ready to face yet another battle of life.

Evenings are never complete too when we couldn’t text each other. Never was a time that he wasn’t there when I wanted to cry for missing points in my quizzes. Never was a time that he didn’t rejoice with me when I would boast my perfect marks too. Never was a time that he didn’t answer when I ask about anything I could ever wonder about.

There had been times too that I haven’t been nice to him and he would feel bad. But even at those times, he kept the same attitude. He was always silent of his disappointments but he never kept it to himself. He would talk but only the two of us would know what it is about. And then we would patch up.

There had been moments too that I have been in doubt of his power—I mean his willingness to accept. Times when I asked myself if he could do something else. But he had proven himself over and over again and he even showed me more than I had expected. His love, care and understanding with that I trusted him more.

But then, life is like a journey—everyone comes and goes. People we learn to care for have to leave us to touch more lives, to find better sails and to direct themselves to the easier trails towards their mission in life. We can only be grateful that once, though short it was, they came to touch our lives and made us feel special.

When he bid goodbye, I was all smiles. I guess the reality of the situation hasn’t struck me yet then. But when I think about the things that we used to talk and laughed about, the saddest and happiest emotions that we’ve shared reverberated in my mind. Out came the memories so dear to my heart that in silence, I cried and shed endless tears of sorrow, of emptiness, of another loss.

Yet I know that he didn’t leave me because he wanted to stop my heart from beating, but because he wants to make my heart find its tune. He didn’t go because he cared less but because he wanted me to be strong. He didn’t choose to stay because he knew I would miss him but because he knew I could go on. No, I am not bitter about farewells. After all, it made me realize that we could only be grateful of what life could offer…

A PIECE OF SOMETHING…


A PIECE OF SOMETHING…

While I was walking, I stopped for a while and thought of the things that I don’t have. Then I realized that the happiest moment of all does not necessarily mean you have the best of everything. We just make most of everything that comes along our way. Its true that we don’t know what we’ve got until we lost it, its also true that we do not know what we have been missing until it arrives.

In the gateway of my heart, I put a sign that says; “NO TRESPASSING”. But LOVE came laughing and said; “I CAN ENTER EVERYWHERE”. Love knows no reason, love knows no lie, love defies all reasons and love has no eyes, but love is not blind. Love sees but it doesn’t mind. Love is when you take away the feelings, passion, and romance until you found out that you still care for that person.

Love is supposed to be the most wonderful feeling. It should inspire you and give you joy and strength. But, sometimes the thing that gives you joy can also hurt you in the end. It starts with a SMILE, develops with a KISS and ends with a TEAR.

When you love you must not expect something in return. If you do, you are not LOVING but INVESTING. If you love, you must prepare to accept pain. For if you only accept happiness, you are not LOVING but USING. Don’t go for looks, it can deceive you. Don’t go for wealth, it will just fade away. Go for someone who can make you smile, because a smile is the beginning of a new relationship and it will make you look younger.

The beginning of love is to let those whom we love be themselves and not to twist them to fit our own image and taste, otherwise we only love the reflection of ourselves we find in them. Never try to impress someone to make him fall in love with you because if you do, you will have to keep that standard for the rest of your life.

A sad thing about life is when we meet someone who means a lot to us, only to find out in the end that he was never bound to be ours and you MUST LET HIM GO. Maybe GOD want us to meet few WRONG people before meeting the RIGHT one so that when we finally meet the right person we will know how to be grateful to that gift. We oftentimes don’t see the reason why we do not always get what we wanted but in the end of it all, we realize that what we wanted was not meant for us. After all everything happens for a reason.

When you feel down because you did not get what you wanted, just sit for awhile and be happy because GOD is thinking of something better for you.

It hurts to love someone but not be loved in return. But the pain is stronger when you love someone and never find the courage to let that person know how you feel. It is always better to have found COURAGE to love even if you lose it in the end rather than finding a love and HIDE it because you were to AFRAID to face the CHALLENGE.

The greatest regret in our lives must be the risk of not accepting. If you think of something which can make you happy, go for it then. Just remember, we only pass this way once…

Love, no matter how hard you find it. No matter how hard you try, you won’t get it. But when you were about to give up, it comes and sometimes the love we are looking for is just right in front of us, to close for our eyes to see. So close your eyes and let your heart open itself. There are so many stars in the sky, only some are radiant enough to be noticed. Among those you choose to ignore are the one which are willing to shine for you forever even if your glance remains elsewhere.

GOD never closes a door without opening a window. He always gives us something better when he takes something away.

Heartaches shall last as long as you want it, to throw it, as you allow it to go. Challenge is not as how to survive heartbreaks but learning from them instead. In relationships, thank GOD when you get hurt for you are given the chance to measure the importance of it. When you grow, you don’t become a better person because you experience suffering, its because of your experience itself that you learn.

We have no right to ask when sorrow comes, “WHY ME AND WHY DOES IT HAPPEN TO ME?” Unless we ask the same questions, for every moment of happiness that comes our way. When GOD put a tear in your eyes, it’s because he wants to put a rainbow in your heart.

There are some things that we never want to let go of… like people we don’t want to leave behind. But keep in mind that LETTING GO is not the end of the world. It’s the beginning of a new life. The brightest future will always be based on the forgotten past. You cannot go on with your life if you’ll never know how to let go of your past failures and heartaches. To LET GO is not to REGRET but to GROW and live for the FUTURE. To LET GO is not to FEAR LESS but to LOVE MORE.

Don’t be afraid to break someone’s heart or to leave your heart broken because that is how relationship should be, and they are just stepping stone for the main one. Follow your heart. It might not always be the right but, you’ll have the memories that would make you smile when you get old. Its better not to have the person you love right now but to lose him forever.

LOVE has its own time, season and reason. Embrace it and be glad that for a moment in your life IT WAS YOURS. Each of us is given a pocketful of time to spend it in whatever way we wish, for it will never come back again. Don’t be so busy planning for the life you wish to have or you might fail to appreciate the kind of life you already have now. DREAM what you want to dream, GO where you want to go, BE what you want to be, for you only have ONE CHANCE to do all things you really want in life.

A heart truly in live never loses hope but it always believes in the promise of love. No matter how long the time and how far the distance, NEVER say GOODBYE if you STILL want to TRY. NEVER GIVE UP when you STILL feel you CAN take it. NEVER say you DON’T LOVE the person anymore when you just CAN’T LET GO.

True love does not have an ending. Its because “TRUE LOVE NEVER DIES”. It remains there… deep in your heart… FOREVER…

Only Love



It's a cold February night. People are bustling through the streets, either pulling up their coat collars or wrapping scarves around their necks, trying to stay warm.
It's so cold today.I'm standing at my window, looking at the people moving like little dots. Standing in a heated room, I'm beginning to pity those people. Why don't they go home? Do they plan on wandering until morning?
"Almost time to go home! My boyfriend must be going crazy." One of the nurses breathe a sign of relief. "Still needs to work overtime on Valentine's Day. It's so unfair!"
"You are fortunate." Another nurse says. "Some people don't have anyone waiting for them."
"You mean Dr. Shu?"Like Sherlock Holmes, my ears perk up when I hear my name."Do you remember how she lost control on this day last year?""Of course I do." A nurse shudders. "I've never seen Dr. Shu like that. Crying and yelling, like she was crazy."They are talking about how I was last year. They are correct. I was out of control, like they said."You can't blame Dr. Shu. If my boyfriend died in front of my eyes, I would probably go crazy as well.""Keep it down. She hasn't left work yet. She might hear you." The two nurses are too late. I heard the entire conversation through the canvas wall."Dr. Shu, what are you doing standing here?"
Just as I was deciding whether or not to reveal myself, another nurse exposed me. I awkwardly step out. The 2 nurses who discussed me start to blush. Their faces became redder than the bow on Valentine's Day chocolates.
"I'm waiting to go home." I pretend that I didn't hear anything."Dr. Shu, you must have gotten too involved in your work. It's already past time to go home. See you tomorrow. Happy Valentine's Day!" She waves goodbye.
"Happy Valentine's Day." I wave back and watch the 2 nurses hurry away.
That's fine. I was ready to go home anyway. Even though no lover is waitingfor me, at least there's a lazy cat waiting for me to feed.
After I come home, the first thing I do is feed the cat. I forgot when I first had the cat. Probably since last year's Valentine's Day. At that time, I was like an abandoned cat, with eyes filled with despair. Cats don't cry, I do. That's the only difference.
"Better drink all the milk or I'll skin you." I threatened the cat. Her name is Christine, my least favorite English name. I don't know why I named the cat Christine. Christine meowed once to let me know she heard me, but her eyes are complaining about my severity. Her eyes remind me of someone I used to know, standing in front of me with eyes of rebellions.
An year ago today, I had lunch with my boyfriend and took the opportunity to complain to him.
"Today is Valentine's Day. Why didn't you give me any flowers?"
He raised his eyebrow. "Why should I give you flowers? You are not my anyone."
"Then... you should at least give me a card!" I pouted my lips, hurt by his tone.
"I know, I know. After lunch, I'll send you an e-card."
E-card. That sounds so impersonal, but that's the way he is. "You have to e-mail it to me. I'll be waiting." I excitedly smiled and planned to sneak home after lunch to check e-mail. Even though he wouldn't use any romantic words, I still looked forward to the card.
"I can't stand you women. Why do you make such a big deal out of Valentine's Day??" He grumbled while eating his food. His comment induced me to fight with him again.
"You are not romantic at all!! Don't you watch any Japanese drama?"
"Japanese drama? I only watch Discovery Channel."
"Your life is so boring." I made a face at him. "One recent drama was really good. You should have watched it."
"What's that drama called?" He didn't believe in the love portrayed in TV and movies. He always thought they were lies.
"It's called 'Story of A Century'." I gladly answered.
"What kind of trashy plot did it have?"
"What do you mean trash?? Show some respect!" I was so angry. "That drama was very touching, and the theme song was beautiful as well. It's called 'Only Love', performed by Nana Mouskouri." I wonder if he knew who Nana was.
"Nana, I know her. A Greek singer with really expensive albums."
"Her voice is worth it." Even though I secretly agreed with him, I couldn't bring myself to admit it.
"Whatever." He glanced at his watch. "I'll give you 5 minutes to tell me the plot. After that, I'm leaving."
I tried hard to explain 6 hours worth of story in just 5 minutes. The drama portrayed the love stories of 3 generations of women spanning 100 years, from 1901 to 2000. Each generation was portrayed by the same actress. The story was tear-jerking.
"What's so touching about it?" He asked, after listening to the story.
"Don't you think each generation's story is wonderful? If I have such great screen writing ability, I wouldn't be a doctor anymore. I would become a screenwriter."
"If you become a screenwriter, I bet no one would watch the show. The TV station can go out of business." He quickly interjected.
"I'm going back to work. Hurry and send me the card!" I was so mad that I went home immediately, not even finishing my coffee.
As soon as I walked in my door, I turned on my computer and go online.
Staring at the empty in-box, I began to reminisce about how we met. Maybe no one will believe me, but my boyfriend and I were actually neighbors. Our homes were only 1 wall away. Ever since we were kids, we liked to fight with each other all day long. I still remember when I moved to the country that year. Used to the city life, I couldn't get used to the simple life in the country. After school, I would just go home and do nothing. Whenever that happened, he would always come over to tease me.
"Why are you staring off into space??" He loved to pull on my hair. "You're so ugly when you're doing nothing. But you're also not pretty when you smile." In other words, I'm really ugly.
"You're the one who's ugly!" I pull back my hair. "If you think I'm so ugly, why do you visit me??"
"Can't help it. My home is right next to your home." He argued.
"Then I'll move!" The next day, I drew a line in the ground using some white chalk. A line that I forbid him to cross.
That year, we were both in the 5th grade. We couldn't stand each other and hoped the other would move away. But 5 years passed, and neither of us moved. Not only that, we got into the same high school and into the same class.
"You're that infamous couple." All the students and teachers in the school would say whenever they saw us.
"We're not!" I always tried to explain. "We're only neighbors." At that time, I hated my parents for making us live next to him."My standard is not that low." He would say. "Who wants her to be a girlfriend?? It's not like I don't have eyes."
"Yes, I know your eyes are on top of your head." I really disliked him. "Better than having eyes on the bottom of my head like you." He implied that I couldn't judge guys. At that time, I had a crush on a senior.
I didn't think that his sarcasm had a hidden meaning. After a while, I found out that the senior student had lots of girlfriends. When I cried about it, he silently passed me a handkerchief and awkwardly held me in his arms.
"I told you he wasn't any good." He roughly comforted me. I cried in his arms the whole night, and began to see him in a different way. Things began to change between us. We still fought all the time, but he started to look at me differently. And I blushed and my heart beat faster when he was near. We both knew: we fell in love with each other.
Even with this knowledge, neither of us said anything. Even though we wouldnot be able to resist and kissed each other constantly. Even though we cared about each other's every moves. Both of us refused to admit our love.
Time flew by quickly, and it was time to face separation. I chose to study medicine, and he chose physics. Yet we still couldn't separate from each other. Our parents worried that we didn't know anyone in Taipei, so they forced us to live in the same apartment building. Once again, we became neighbors. We still fought, but sometimes we fought into the bedroom. Alright, we became lovers, but we still wouldn't say we loved each other. We didn't even spend Valentine's Day together until he saw me share dinner with a man one Valentine's Day. That night, he waited for me in front of my door and said that he would take me out to dinner on Valentine's Day from then on. I have to say that he was very arrogant. But I nodded and accepted his request. Since then, we spent every Valentine's Day together. After graduation, I became an intern. He started a small computer company with some friends and became a programmer. We were busy with our own lives and had no time for a relationship. Three years later, I became a doctor, and his business began to boom. We separately moved to biggerapartments and stopped being neighbors. On the surface, we left each other. In reality, we were still together. We spent every Valentine's Day together but each year became more dreary than the next because he never told me he loved me even with all my hints.
Facing the empty in-box, I suddenly grew very angry. He wouldn't say it and wouldn't send me a card. What did he mean? Who did he think I was? I called his cell phone.
"Hello." He picked up the phone.
"I didn't receive the card." I immediately showed my displeasure.
"You didn't receive it?" He seemed really busy. "But I sent it."
He was really busy but I didn't care. "I didn't receive it. Send it again."
"Okay, I'll send you 100 times. Is that good enough??" He said with impatience. His tone further infuriated me. Is that how lovers speak to each other?
"Don't bother sending it to me. And you don't have to pick me up tonight.
I'll eat dinner by myself."
"Don't be childish, ok? I'm really busy."
"I AM childish!" I hung up the phone and tears rolled down my cheeks.
Childish?? Why didn't he consider the situation? We've gone out for so many years and spent countless Valentine's Day together. I never received any flowers nor cards from him. Now, I just want a little e-card. Is that too much to ask for??
I unplugged the phone from the wall and turned off my cell phone. I didn't want to hear his explanations. After I returned to the hospital, I instructed the receptionist not to forward me any phone calls. I wanted to concentrate on work.
Because there were so many emergencies today, I was sweating 1 hour later and forgot about our argument.
"Dr. Shu, please take a look at that patient."
As I was collecting my equipment, the shrill sound of an ambulance sounded outside the ER. When I stepped out the door, the emergency medics hurriedly wheeled in a gurney.
"What happened to him?" I asked the 1st medic. Everyone else were trying to help put the patient on the gurney. He was covered with blood.
"Car accident." The medic replied. "Very serious. He may die."
I nodded and ran to the operating room with them. When I arrived, the nurses told me that the man had already stopped breathing and also his heartbeat also stopped
"Prepare for shock." I calmly instructed the nurses. Saving people is our duty. We can't lose our calm.
But when I saw who laid on the operating table, I lost my calm. That person was my boyfriend!
"No..." I stood in shock. "NO!!!" I grabbed the paddles and continuously shocked his body. His body bounced up and down from the shocks. The scared nurses went to find another doctor, to tell him that I was crazy.
I didn't know if I was crazy or not. I just wanted to save my lover. Even though we fought all the time. Even though he never showed me his love. I still wanted to save him. He still owed me a card. He couldn't die! I threw away the paddles and began to press on his heart. I pressed with all my strength, hoping it would revive him, but he didn't wake up. He didn't even say "It hurts". He just laid there with his eyes closed, punishing me with his silence.
Dr. Jian angrily pushed me away. By that time, I couldn't see clearly anymore. I cried. I wailed. I bowled until no sounds could come out of my mouth.
"It's too late, Dr. Shu. He's already dead. I'm sorry." Dr. Jian patted me on the shoulder. They knew each other and ate together once. I introduced them.
"He can't die." I shook my head. "He can't die!!" I struggled to run to him.
"Dr. Shu, control yourself!" Dr. Jian slapped me. "I understand what you're going through, but you're a doctor."
Yes, I'm a doctor, but I'm also a regular person. How can Dr. Jian understand how I feel? I've loved him for so many years that it's become a habit. How can I just throw away a habit? Besides, he still owed me a card. "I want him to live! I want him to live!" I ran to him again and tried to knock the life back into his body.
"Take her away!" That day, I lost my control and my professionalism.
And that day happened to be Valentine's Day.
Afterwards, I asked his co-workers why he left work early that day.
They told me that after I hung up the phone, he tried to call me several times but couldn't reach me. Worried, he drove to the hospital to find me and got hit by a large truck on the way.
When I heard this, I froze. My tantrum killed him. Just because of an unmailed card, he died. After that, I lost my privilege to be childish.
Like an abandoned cat, I couldn't even cry anymore. After his death, I couldn't cry anymore, regardless of how touching the plot or how tear-jerking the dialogue. They didn't affect me anymore.
Now, I'm only left with a cat and a seldomly used computer. Stepping over the cat, I turned on the computer. Even though I know no one will send me a mail, I still hoped that someone will remember me on this day.
Meow, meow. I looked at Christine to see what's wrong. She finished her milk. I went into the kitchen to get her more milk then came back to look at the computer screen.
I have.... 100 emails! Who would be bored enough to send me 100 junk mail?
I was just about to delete them all when I received another mail, and this one said: "Because of system error, we could not send these until today.
We apologize for the delay." The sender was my ISP.
I looked at the 1st mail. It showed the send date is last year's Valentine's Day. My heart began to beat fast. Could he have sent these?
With a trembling hand, I opened the mail. The first thing that popped up was a gorgeous red rose set against green leaves. Then a beautiful melody began to play.... "Only Love". I couldn't believe it. The rose was so beautiful and the music was so dreamy. I almost thought I was in a fantasy. Most touching of all were the words underneath the rose, because the words read like a beautiful poem.
"Hwei."
That's my name.
"Knowing you so many years, I've never sent you any flowers. Today I send you a rose."
I received it and it's so beautiful.
"You know we are always fighting. We can never really open our hearts and tell each other how we feel."
Yes, but it's all your fault for being so distant.
"I know I always make you mad by the things I say."
Good that you're admitting it.
"But today I want to say to you: I'm sorry, and I love you."
I waited so many years for those words.
"And I want to tell you a good news. I finally saved enough money."
You already have enough money. Why did you need so much?
"So Hwei, let's get married!! I was afraid to propose to you, because I didn't trust in my ability to give you the good life you deserve. But now I've saved enough money so we don't have to wait anymore."
Who wanted you to wait? I'm already yours."Today, I use this card to propose to you. Will you marry me, Hwei? Will you?"
That's the content of the whole card. Like a fool, I kept reading his words and talking to him. It's like I can hear his voice and see him again.
As if it's back to 1 year ago with us constantly fighting.
The song played over and over. Repeating Nana's heartbreaking voice.
Only love can make a memory. Only love can make a moment last. You were there and all the world was young and all it's songs unsung. and I remember you then when love was all, all you were living for,and how you gave that love to me...."
The lyrics of this song fits our love so closely. When he was alive, my world was so young. Every day, I could find a something different to fight with him about. But after he left, my life is only left with memories and coldness that will never go away.
"Will you marry me?"
When I read these words, my tears unconsciously came, wetting the keyboard.
Will I? If he's in front of me, I will definitely kick him and call him a big fool. If I wasn't willing, I wouldn't have waited until today.
So I moved the cursor over the "Reply" box, and typed the response that I've already prepared for so many years - "I will."
I will - be by his side for the rest of my life. I will - fight with him forever. That is how I answered him, but the only response I got was the repeating song "Only Love."
Nevertheless, I opened every single letter, accepted every singled rose, and typed the same response: "I will."
I replied 100 times, and "Only Love" played 100 times. In this cold Valentine's night, the line that's been broken for 1 year finally got reconnected.
I answered you. What about you?

A Silent Love


From the very Begining, the girl's family objected strongly on her dating this guy. Saying that it has got to do with family background & that the girl will have to suffer for the rest of her life if she were to be with him.
Due to family's pressure, the couple quarrel very often. Though the girl love the guy deeply, but she always ask him: "How deep is your love for me?"
As the guy is not good with his words, this often cause the girl to be very upset. With that & the family's pressure, the girl often vent her anger on him. As for him, he only endure it in silence.
After a couple of years, the guy finally graduated & decided to further his studies in overseas. Before leaving, he proposed to the girl: "I'm not very good with words. But all I know is that I love you. If you allow me, I will take care of you for the rest of my life. As for your family, I'll try my best to talk them round. Will you marry me?"
The girl agreed, & with the guy's determination, the family finally gave in & agreed to let them get married. So before he leave, they got engaged.
The girl went out to the working society, whereas the guy was overseas, continuing his studies. They sent their love through emails & phone calls. Though it's hard, but both never thought of giving up.
One day, while the girl was on her way to work, she was knocked down by a car that lost control. When she woke up, she saw her parents beside her bed. She realised that she was badly injured. Seeing her mum crying, she wanted to comfort her. But she realized that all that could come out of her mouth was just a sigh. She has lost her voice......
The doctors says that the impact on her brain has caused her to lose her voice. Listening to her parents' comfort, but with nothing coming out from her, she broke down.
During the stay in hospital, besides silence cry,.....it's still just silence cry that companied her. Upon reaching home, everything seems to be the same. Except for the ringing tone of the phone. Which pierced into her heart everytime it rang. She does not wish to let the guy know. & not wanting to be a burden to him, she wrote a letter to him saying that she does not wish to wait any longer.
With that, she sent the ring back to him. In return, the guy sent millions & millions of reply, and countless of phonecalls,.. all the girl could do, besides crying, is still crying....
The parents decided to move away, hoping that she could eventually forget everything & be happy.
With a new environment, the girl learn sign language & started a new life. Telling herself everyday that she must forget the guy. One day, her friend came & told her that he's back. She asked her friend not to let him know what happened to her. Since then, there wasn't anymore news of him.
A year has passed & her friend came with an envelope, containing an invitation card for the guy's wedding. The girl was shattered. When she open the letter, she saw her name in it instead.
When she was about to ask her friend what's going on, she saw the guy standing in front of her. He used sign language telling her "I've spent a year's time to learn sign language. Just to let you know that I've not forgotten our promise. Let me have the chance to be your voice. I Love You. With that, he slipped the ring back into her finger. The girl finally smiled.