SILENT TEARS

A paradox of life; The people we meet are meant to fill the emptiness in our lives yet in reality, they bring greater holes in our hearts when time comes that they have to go. Because of that I sometimes hope I only have myself to be with… Then I wouldn’t have to know short-lived joy and suffer endless pain. But life wouldn’t permit that to happen. Again and again, it allows us to meet people who come to touch our lives and leave us to yearn at the memories they fill.

He came to my life during the times I felt like the world was trying to keep me away from the one thing I truly loved—writing. I was a miserable earthling then, unsure of my dreams, my life, and myself but I was determined to step into the unknown. I wasn’t strong and confident but I was persistent. I wasn’t always a winner but I was unwavering. I wasn’t perfect because I was just a human. And he was there as my guide, never failing me for a moment.

My mornings are always started with early chitchats about everything in life and it was always filled with something new to learn. I would laugh at myself and at my foolishness and he would be there to listen and tell his own tales. I would pour out my emotions and he would express amusement. I was bizarre but it didn’t matter. He always understood. After that, I always feel ready to face yet another battle of life.

Evenings are never complete too when we couldn’t text each other. Never was a time that he wasn’t there when I wanted to cry for missing points in my quizzes. Never was a time that he didn’t rejoice with me when I would boast my perfect marks too. Never was a time that he didn’t answer when I ask about anything I could ever wonder about.

There had been times too that I haven’t been nice to him and he would feel bad. But even at those times, he kept the same attitude. He was always silent of his disappointments but he never kept it to himself. He would talk but only the two of us would know what it is about. And then we would patch up.

There had been moments too that I have been in doubt of his power—I mean his willingness to accept. Times when I asked myself if he could do something else. But he had proven himself over and over again and he even showed me more than I had expected. His love, care and understanding with that I trusted him more.

But then, life is like a journey—everyone comes and goes. People we learn to care for have to leave us to touch more lives, to find better sails and to direct themselves to the easier trails towards their mission in life. We can only be grateful that once, though short it was, they came to touch our lives and made us feel special.

When he bid goodbye, I was all smiles. I guess the reality of the situation hasn’t struck me yet then. But when I think about the things that we used to talk and laughed about, the saddest and happiest emotions that we’ve shared reverberated in my mind. Out came the memories so dear to my heart that in silence, I cried and shed endless tears of sorrow, of emptiness, of another loss.

Yet I know that he didn’t leave me because he wanted to stop my heart from beating, but because he wants to make my heart find its tune. He didn’t go because he cared less but because he wanted me to be strong. He didn’t choose to stay because he knew I would miss him but because he knew I could go on. No, I am not bitter about farewells. After all, it made me realize that we could only be grateful of what life could offer…

A PIECE OF SOMETHING…

A PIECE OF SOMETHING…

While I was walking, I stopped for a while and thought of the things that I don’t have. Then I realized that the happiest moment of all does not necessarily mean you have the best of everything. We just make most of everything that comes along our way. Its true that we don’t know what we’ve got until we lost it, its also true that we do not know what we have been missing until it arrives.

In the gateway of my heart, I put a sign that says; “NO TRESPASSING”. But LOVE came laughing and said; “I CAN ENTER EVERYWHERE”. Love knows no reason, love knows no lie, love defies all reasons and love has no eyes, but love is not blind. Love sees but it doesn’t mind. Love is when you take away the feelings, passion, and romance until you found out that you still care for that person.

Love is supposed to be the most wonderful feeling. It should inspire you and give you joy and strength. But, sometimes the thing that gives you joy can also hurt you in the end. It starts with a SMILE, develops with a KISS and ends with a TEAR.

When you love you must not expect something in return. If you do, you are not LOVING but INVESTING. If you love, you must prepare to accept pain. For if you only accept happiness, you are not LOVING but USING. Don’t go for looks, it can deceive you. Don’t go for wealth, it will just fade away. Go for someone who can make you smile, because a smile is the beginning of a new relationship and it will make you look younger.

The beginning of love is to let those whom we love be themselves and not to twist them to fit our own image and taste, otherwise we only love the reflection of ourselves we find in them. Never try to impress someone to make him fall in love with you because if you do, you will have to keep that standard for the rest of your life.

A sad thing about life is when we meet someone who means a lot to us, only to find out in the end that he was never bound to be ours and you MUST LET HIM GO. Maybe GOD want us to meet few WRONG people before meeting the RIGHT one so that when we finally meet the right person we will know how to be grateful to that gift. We oftentimes don’t see the reason why we do not always get what we wanted but in the end of it all, we realize that what we wanted was not meant for us. After all everything happens for a reason.

When you feel down because you did not get what you wanted, just sit for awhile and be happy because GOD is thinking of something better for you.

It hurts to love someone but not be loved in return. But the pain is stronger when you love someone and never find the courage to let that person know how you feel. It is always better to have found COURAGE to love even if you lose it in the end rather than finding a love and HIDE it because you were to AFRAID to face the CHALLENGE.

The greatest regret in our lives must be the risk of not accepting. If you think of something which can make you happy, go for it then. Just remember, we only pass this way once…

Love, no matter how hard you find it. No matter how hard you try, you won’t get it. But when you were about to give up, it comes and sometimes the love we are looking for is just right in front of us, to close for our eyes to see. So close your eyes and let your heart open itself. There are so many stars in the sky, only some are radiant enough to be noticed. Among those you choose to ignore are the one which are willing to shine for you forever even if your glance remains elsewhere.

GOD never closes a door without opening a window. He always gives us something better when he takes something away.

Heartaches shall last as long as you want it, to throw it, as you allow it to go. Challenge is not as how to survive heartbreaks but learning from them instead. In relationships, thank GOD when you get hurt for you are given the chance to measure the importance of it. When you grow, you don’t become a better person because you experience suffering, its because of your experience itself that you learn.

We have no right to ask when sorrow comes, “WHY ME AND WHY DOES IT HAPPEN TO ME?” Unless we ask the same questions, for every moment of happiness that comes our way. When GOD put a tear in your eyes, it’s because he wants to put a rainbow in your heart.

There are some things that we never want to let go of… like people we don’t want to leave behind. But keep in mind that LETTING GO is not the end of the world. It’s the beginning of a new life. The brightest future will always be based on the forgotten past. You cannot go on with your life if you’ll never know how to let go of your past failures and heartaches. To LET GO is not to REGRET but to GROW and live for the FUTURE. To LET GO is not to FEAR LESS but to LOVE MORE.

Don’t be afraid to break someone’s heart or to leave your heart broken because that is how relationship should be, and they are just stepping stone for the main one. Follow your heart. It might not always be the right but, you’ll have the memories that would make you smile when you get old. Its better not to have the person you love right now but to lose him forever.

LOVE has its own time, season and reason. Embrace it and be glad that for a moment in your life IT WAS YOURS. Each of us is given a pocketful of time to spend it in whatever way we wish, for it will never come back again. Don’t be so busy planning for the life you wish to have or you might fail to appreciate the kind of life you already have now. DREAM what you want to dream, GO where you want to go, BE what you want to be, for you only have ONE CHANCE to do all things you really want in life.

A heart truly in live never loses hope but it always believes in the promise of love. No matter how long the time and how far the distance, NEVER say GOODBYE if you STILL want to TRY. NEVER GIVE UP when you STILL feel you CAN take it. NEVER say you DON’T LOVE the person anymore when you just CAN’T LET GO.

True love does not have an ending. Its because “TRUE LOVE NEVER DIES”. It remains there… deep in your heart… FOREVER…